The deep sadness overwhelmed my heart. “God, why, oh why?” I whispered. That sharp pain was back again. The wound that I thought had healed had reopened; bleeding like when it was first made. Years ago, I had dealt with this wound. I thought it was healed, but sometimes this deep hurt surprises me. It doesn’t matter where the hurt stemmed from this time; it always looks the same.
All the feelings came flooding back; pain, rejection, sorrow, loneliness, deep sadness. Loss for what might have been. Longing for the emptiness in my heart to be filled. Satan began to whisper lies into my ear again.
“ You are not good enough.” “ You will never be the person God wants you to be.” “ You will never get over it.” “ You will never get anywhere with forgiving this time. Why do you even try?” “You keep coming back to this same pain. Nothing works.” “You are a failure.”
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